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[Oct. 16th, 2009|12:58 am] |
october 13 - mirah concert
october 31 - halloween!
november 8 - dane cook
november 25 - trans siberian orchestra concert
november 27 - metric concert
december 1 - john's 23rd/robert's 21st birthday
december 7 - my 21st birthday
december 15 - last day of exams
december 25 - christmas
december 31 - new years in charlotte/greensboro
y'all, october always brings in the fun times! best year ever? I THINK SO! seriously, though. this year i've seen almost all of my favorite artists: taking back sunday, modest mouse, mirah, and metric. 2009, you have been kick ass so far. |
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[Jan. 11th, 2009|09:57 pm] |
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| | takk takk | ] |
brief were my days among you, and briefer still the words i have spoken. but should my voice fade in your ears, and my love vanish in your memory, then i will come again, and with a richer heart and lips more yielding to the spirit will i speak. |
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[Jan. 10th, 2009|11:39 pm] |
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| | passionpit | ] |
but if you love and must have desires, let these be your desires: to melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night, to know the pain of too much tenderness, to be wounded by your own understanding of love. and to bleed willfully and joyfully, to wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving, to rest at the noon hour and meditate on love’s ecstasy, to return home at eventide with gratitude, and then to sleep with a prayer of your beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips. |
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| remember that time when i would only eat boxes of tangerines |
[Jun. 3rd, 2008|12:25 am] |
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| | that time; regina spektor | ] |
i wish i wasn't leaving utah tomorrow. i wish i could stay here all summer. you don't know what beautiful is until you've visited here and camped under the night sky and gone swimming in the bluest lake in existence. i love utah. the air is clean, the people are good, and humidity doesn't exist. i've fallen so in love with logan city and salt lake city. this is, by far, the best vacation i've ever had. i plan to come back soon, hopefully. i need another night of competitive pictionary and hand made friendship necklaces.
bright side: as soon as i step off the plane, i get to kiss john as much as i'd like. |
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| i lied, i guess |
[May. 19th, 2008|01:42 am] |
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| | john's soft breathing | ] |
i realized how much certain people love me and to just what extent and how petty others can be. i could not be happier, truthfully. i haven't felt this complete is such a long time.
needless to say, summer couldn't have started any better! i feel like i'm on a permanent good one. i hope it lasts.
i quit my digital camera for a while. i'll just be using my 35mm for the next couple months. and i meet my soon to be kitten (hopefully) tomorrow. i am set on naming her inari and calling her nari for short.
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| sp08! |
[Mar. 17th, 2008|10:35 am] |
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| | my rice cooker | ] |
spring break '08 was all about being spoiled with good food, lots of love, and new prada glasses.
i am so goddamn in love with john that it's fucking ridiculous! i spoon him while he sleeps and wake him up with fkl;da. i wait patiently (not really) for him to get off work so we can play fight/wrestle (so i can fall off everything and bust my head). i like when he gives me back rubs and foot massages when i'm half asleep and drooling on myself. i am his faithful little kitten.
for our anniversary he drove me out to swansboro for my favorite sandwiches EVERRRRRRR. and the ONLY cheesecake i will EVER eat. oh and he got us tickets for the stars concert this friday and the new mars volta cd. oh and i'm pretty sure he's taking me to SEE the mars volta next month in myrtle beach. i am spoiled rotten.
hell yes to a four day weekend! sooner or later i'll actually get around to posting pictures. when i stop being lazy. which is probably never. |
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| i am not bitter |
[Jan. 31st, 2008|11:20 am] |
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| | the bird and the bee | ] |
1. after all this time, i feel like i still don't know everything about you. in some ways it scares me. i feel as though i may never know you inside and out, but whose to say that's a bad thing? my feelings for you have gotten out of hand. i love you too much. you never fail to give me weak knees when we touch. you know everything that i like; everything that makes me tick. i cannot help myself from falling more and more in love with you and it scares me.
2. i feel sorry for you and not for the reasons most people pity you. you used to be someone that i could relate to and love. now, you've completely changed for the worst. i've tried so hard to reconnect with you, but the truth is: i can't stand the person you've become. i can't stand to be around you. i hope one of these days, you learn and grow into a better person. i don't know you anymore and i stopped years ago.
3. you are my sister. you are my sister. you are my sister. you are my best friend. you already know everything i think and what i am about to think. i miss you and it is really hard being away from you for the first time in almost five years. i will never find anyone else like you. i honestly don't need to include you in this, because you already know, but i just like talking about you.
4. by far, you've disappointed me more than anyone. i put good faith into believe that you were a different person, who had grown up and was above most. but you've never grown up, you've just gotten better at hiding your immaturity. i wish you knew the shit your friends say behind your back. maybe then you'd wake up. truthfully, i feel sorry for you. you're really naive.
5. i wonder if you've ever come clean and admitted to the travesties you've done to your "best friend." i've tried to see past your two-faced, lying personality to something better, because at one point, i did love you, but i just can't do it anymore. because there isn't another side to you. truth be told, you're probably one of the most sketchy people i've ever met. obviously, the effort i put into our friendship and all the times i let you confide in me never meant anything to you. i guess i was hoping for more from you, but you're just like everyone else.
6. first and foremost, you should know i support you in whatever decision you make, because i trust your judgment (not in boys though). you are doing what is good for you and i admire your commitment to your religion and lifestyle. we might completely differ in some departments, but i don't love you any less. you're growing up so much and learning; i'm just so proud of you. i miss lying on your couch and eating your mom's home-made cakes and playing with the kitties and puppies. i miss napping in the afternoon on your bed. i miss summer vacations with you. i just miss you so much. it's funny though, since i never thought we would even be friends.
7. your thought process makes me annoyed sometimes, but i have to remember certain things about you. i'm sorry that your life hasn't gone the way you planned or hoped. i really am. i'm trying, in my own way, to push you into following through with your new ones. you need to get things going and you know that. i DO love you and i wish you the best.
8. you're a fucking chameleon. you change your mind, your attitudes, and even your personality depending on who you are with. i used to feel sorry for you, but then i realized that you put yourself in that situation, so you get whatever you deserve. for so long, i let my love for you get in the way of seeing you for what you truly are. i've helped you through so much, because i love you and i think a part of me always will, but i gave up on you months ago.
9. i don't think you love me as much as i love you anymore, but i guess it's understandable. i don't know why, but seeing and being with you just makes me happy. you never fail to make me smile. i worry about your happiness sometimes, but i know eventually it will get better. i don't know why you like me so much, because i'm really boring compared to everyone else you know.
10. you have changed and grown up so much over these past couple months. i love you and i'm so proud! you should've never let anyone step on you for any reason. i'm glad you're finally learning to stand up for yourself. i know sometimes it seems like i've fallen off the planet, because we don't keep in touch too well, but it doesn't mean i don't still love you. you're like my little sister and you should know that i'm always here for you. i miss you a lot. |
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| spring semester 2008 |
[Jan. 13th, 2008|11:31 pm] |
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| | woe - say anything | ] |
intro into narrative (m/w/f) 9-9:50am
intro into greek civilization (m/w) 2-3:15pm
social psychology of dress (m/w) 3:30-4:45pm
english 101 (tu/th) 9:30-10:45am
major concepts of biology lecture (tu/th) 2-3:15pm
all of which interprets into: i only have ONE class on fridays. nice little set up. i can tell i'm going to have a lot of homework though. gee golly.
i moved into my new room, in my same old dorm, in my same old hall, today. i have ZERO books. zero. (zero...) i have to get up bright and early to go to the bookstore to buy my FOURTEEN books needed for the semester. i have $524.24 in my account. all of which, sadly, is going towards books. hopefully, i can get all my books, or at least the first three, and get to class in time at 9am. i have a lot to do tomorrow. i already have homework and the first day...is not until tomorrow.
i don't really have friends here anymore, since sarah left. but i am trying to make an effort to be friends with amber, my roomie. and maybe try to be there more to hang out with robert and derrick. i need a nice GIRL friend.
john is staying with me for the 3 day weekend. oh, and he bought me animal crossing:wild world for the ds and i cannot stop playing it.
seriously: should i stay at uncg next year or should i transfer somewhere else so i can get an apartment with people i know? |
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| all i wanted was to be your housewife |
[Jan. 7th, 2008|12:35 am] |
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| | northstar | ] |
i am falling more and more desperately in love with john with each passing minute, if that is still possible after three years of being together. i am his little house wife, waiting up for him to come home from work to wash his dirty laundry and cook him a big dinner. i still get weak knees when we kiss and often have a hard time opening my tiny asian eyes. oh dear.
school starts next monday and i'm honestly not ready to move back. |
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| christmas specials are nice |
[Dec. 19th, 2007|10:49 pm] |
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| | hark the harald angels | ] |
there is nothing better than sitting in my living room on the rug, with the christmas tree lights and fireplace on while scrapbooking (for john's present shhh!) and having ciana sitting in my lap. mmmmm christmas break is so good to me. |
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| MIRANDA, THAT GHOST JUST ISN'T HOLY ANYMORE |
[Sep. 14th, 2005|07:42 am] |
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| | holes; mercury rev | ] |
i've always wanted to eat glass with you again, but i never knew how to talk without walls dropping on the eve. the nest they made couldn't break you along the fallen, scowled fence of beaks, but the temple is scathing through your veins. they were scaling through an ice pick of abcess rekoning. and when miranda sang, everyone turned away. used to the noose, they obey. |
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